~ from the song "Simple and Clean" by Utada Hikaru
This is really a 'something' to me and my closest friends in school. I still remember the time when they said that when they entered a relationship and it's not 'meant' to be, they won't be begging the guy to stay. They were so confident and self-assured until we entered high school.
Like they say, highschool's very different from grade school or middle school. At the same time, we're at the stage wherein we undergo countless changes in all aspects~ physical, emotional, mental, spiritual and moral. Then the promise we all made before enetering high school was tested.
"Please~ I beg you, don't go..."
"I need you~ please stay by my side..."
" Am I not good enough for you? Is that why you're leaving me now?"
I've heard these lines a lot from many 'highschoolers'~ and from my friends who promised that they won't say these sentences when they arrive in a situation like these. It's unevitable.
"Pathetic. You broke your promise..."
Those were the words that came out from my mouth at that moment. Actually, it was not meant to hurt them~ but it did...a lot. My goal for saying that is to make them realize that life must go on even if those guys left them. Arrggh. I was really stupid at that time for saying that. Actually, it took me some time to realize that I was actually wrong. Their tears made me realize that I should comforting them~ not blaming them because of my stupid excuse. Well, I've learned the lesson already and it's fun to know that it helped it me a lot~ in many ways.
Many have shed tears because of this thing called love. Hmmm... I'm just so proud of myself. Inside our 'circle of friends' , I'm one of the three people (out of ten) that didn't cry because of this thing. And right at this very moment, I promise that I'll be keeping this promise.
"When you walk away, you don't hear me say 'Please; oh baby, don't go..."
~ from the song "Simple and Clean" by Utada Hikaru
Labels: part one, reflection
