Before the end of the year, I decided to make this blog entry that will always remind me of what I have learned since the day that I was born until this very day. This will always inspire me and will make me continue to explore the world and its wonders; the different lives that I want to know more; the people I want to understand and many other secrets and facts that life has to offer. I know what I'm saying is pretty sentimental and corny for some people but if you look at the deeper side of this, it can't be helped. If you want to express yourself up to the point that you'll feel satisfied at the very end, you have to accept the fact that forming an image of 'being corny' for some time is a part of showing sincerity. *Sighs* That was a good start. But more important part is the message of this whole blog entry. First and foremost, it's a victory, not a failure to admit my problems, acknowledge any wrong I've done, and of course, turn them to a higher power for help.It's healthy to accept and love myself, and let others love me, for I am worthy of respect and love. Every person is worthy for these things; which should not be taken for granted.It's always okay to trust others and myself. I guess, i can be responsible for myself, just as others can be responsible for themselves.We should be responsible enough for every thing we make.It's possible for me to be happy since happiness depends on myself and my attitude, not on other people or things. If you're optimistic, I guess your day is always well-lived~ doubts are not that many, I guess. If you're pessimistic and the only reason you act like this is because you're just considering all the possibilities, you're excuse is definitely unacceptable. At any rate, there's still time for change.It's also plausible for me to change if I set realistic goals; I can reach them one by one; one step at a time; one day at a time. Never pressure yourself or push yourself to the limit. Obstacles are normal when you try to reach your goals. Just treat them as tests, not burdens.This became hard for me at first until I realize that this is a universal truth. I can't do everything or anything perfectly, but the fact that I can do something is really a 'something'. If I fail or something, I guess it's okay. There's no failure except in not trying.Also, it's alright to set limits to keep my sanity and serenity. It's okay to let things go that can't be changed or that do not matter. I know this can be hard for a lot of people especially on the 'letting go' part. We have the tendency to be possesive which can lead to misunderstandings. We have to be selfless at some point of our life and accept the fact that we have to let go- even if it can be hard at some point.*Sighs* I guess this is it. And i've spend many years just to learn and at least, accept these things. It can be hard at some point but the happiness it give is something so precious- it's just priceless. So at this very moment, I will end this blog entry with a promise.I promise- with my mind, body and soul to put these things on mind. With these lessons of life that my experiences taught me, I know- I can hang on. I still have a long way to go- and I can do it; everyone can for sure. Labels: 2008 preview, reflection, year-enders
"When you walk away, you don't hear me say 'Please; oh baby, don't go..."~ from the song "Simple and Clean" by Utada HikaruThis is really a 'something' to me and my closest friends in school. I still remember the time when they said that when they entered a relationship and it's not 'meant' to be, they won't be begging the guy to stay. They were so confident and self-assured until we entered high school.
Like they say, highschool's very different from grade school or middle school. At the same time, we're at the stage wherein we undergo countless changes in all aspects~ physical, emotional, mental, spiritual and moral. Then the promise we all made before enetering high school was tested.
"Please~ I beg you, don't go..."
"I need you~ please stay by my side..."
" Am I not good enough for you? Is that why you're leaving me now?"
I've heard these lines a lot from many 'highschoolers'~ and from my friends who promised that they won't say these sentences when they arrive in a situation like these. It's unevitable.
"Pathetic. You broke your promise..."
Those were the words that came out from my mouth at that moment. Actually, it was not meant to hurt them~ but it did...a lot. My goal for saying that is to make them realize that life must go on even if those guys left them. Arrggh. I was really stupid at that time for saying that. Actually, it took me some time to realize that I was actually wrong. Their tears made me realize that I should comforting them~ not blaming them because of my stupid excuse. Well, I've learned the lesson already and it's fun to know that it helped it me a lot~ in many ways.
Many have shed tears because of this thing called love. Hmmm... I'm just so proud of myself. Inside our 'circle of friends' , I'm one of the three people (out of ten) that didn't cry because of this thing. And right at this very moment, I promise that I'll be keeping this promise.
"When you walk away, you don't hear me say 'Please; oh baby, don't go..."~ from the song "Simple and Clean" by Utada HikaruLabels: part one, reflection
Affection, Love, Puppy love, True love, First love or whatever you may call it- it’s just one aspect that can’t be removed and/or expressed in the whole wide world. The ‘living’ express this in many ways (why living? Animals know how to express this too)... it can be verbally ( saying words ‘full of love and affection), showing ‘acts of love’ (whatever you may call it..) and many others. In most cases, friends end up ‘loving’ each other. People feeling frustration with each other turn out to be adoring each other. I’m not sure about this concept yet, there’s one thing I’m really sure about this aspect of life: Whether you are loved or you love someone ( I’m talking about one-sided love), there’s a different kind of emotion that develops in you- I can’t really say what it is but it does make you feel warm and safe inside. For me, this concept is a bit crucial for me because I’ve never felt that feeling from someone else. So here’s a question to all people who have read the entry: What happens if someone wasn’t given love back? What will be the right thing to do? Will there be such a "right thing" to do in the first place?*Thinks* Why am I asking this anyway? Haist. Just bear with my curious mind people. (:Labels: ai, amor, love, weird things
Hi! People call me in various names. Schoolmates and most people I know call me Michelle. My Japanese friends call me Resha 'cause they can't speak the letter 'l' in my name (and Michieru's too long for them already~). People who are close to me call me Mitch (well, there are others who simple just feel to call me in that name). My longest-running best friend (she's a blast~!) calls me Witchelle sometimes (especially when I tend to be a witch-mage). Another best friend of mine call me Michieru.
*thinks* Oh~! Enough with the names~
Anyways, I'm a 15-year-old student and a certified anime addict (not obsessed..Okay?) People around me say that I'm outgoing and sensitive- in a good way. I'm also aware to the fact that there are people that don't like me or they just don't feel being with someone like me. I mean, you can't please everyone yet, try to reach out and maybe, you'll meet each other half way.
Right now, I can say that I became more responsible, patient and fun- loving than before. I really want to live my life to its fullest. How 'bout that? I mean, there's just 'certain' events and 'certain' people who changed my life..who changed the way who I am. Thanks to them.. I realized that I don't want to be someone else..that I want to show everyone who I am- the real me.
Also, a friend told me that there's nothing to be afraid of..especially what may happen in the future or whatever happened during the past. The imporatant thing is what you are today and what you think right now. Free your mind- feel free to tell everyone your feelings! Why would you be afraid to show who you are(unless you're not hurting anyone, right?)*_*
Well, I really can't describe myself completely 'cause like other people out there, there are many things I am discovering and will discover about myself. And believe it or not, I'm not that aware of the a concept in life called LOVE. I never thought of 'soulmates', boyfriend/girlfriend relationships because I'm pretty clueless about it. Well, I've never been involved in a greater relationship (aside from friendship and family) so I don't have that much idea about it. I know the some stories that my friends told me. They usually give advices to me like you shouldn't be possesive; you must have an open mind while you're in a relationship..stuff like that. Yet, there's one thing that I'm really sure. You don't have to find the person who is really for you and don't wait for that person to come as well. That person can be very far or very near to you but you can never tell what's gonna happen next. Just expect the unexpected.
I need answers to questions. I want to feel contented and satisfied. I want to be someone whom every person can tell his/her thoughts. And I guess, I still have a long way to go-- we still have a long way to go. So, guys out there, let's just hang on and let's keep it up, shall we? Labels: I, me, michieru (:, myself
